i'm sorry if i wrote about this, its the past. i know that. but i just couldn't understand it. maybe due to the love songs they are playing now on class 95, making me recall back the past. i don't love you now, that's for sure. i might had love you in the past, when we were together. maybe i just needed to have someone at that point of time, and you came along. i thought a chance should be given, you deserved more than one. You were sweet, maybe too sweet to me, i took you more than granted, but it doesn't mean i need someone not sweet to me. Only to know that somehow we are not very compatible, i was wild, i needed someone to party with me. i was bored, i needed some kind of night life. but why am i not like this now? i rather stay at home, then go pubbing. i rather chose to be with you, spending quality moments together, then to go elsewhere with friends. my time are always yours. maybe its just due to a different kind of love.
I admit i love you, love you much since the past when we started to be together with each other. Love i guess is still the same, although trust is still not there, but somehow its increasing. The fear of losing you is coming back, or already back. i hate the feeling that you will leave me one day, hopefully not. i don't wish to see it coming, but if you really gotta leave, i got no choice. This time hopefully will not be like last time once again, i hate myself. I'll be your angel, this song really make me wanna tear. i'm getting pretty much emotional typing this.
I don't get it, maybe due to the attitude you gave me. i remembered you did tell me once that when i need help, i can get back to you. i didn't shun myself from you, you did. maybe the love is really gone, so there isn't any impact. i treat you as a friend, no more than that. i remember the very last msg you msg me, and till then i didn't wanna reply in any ways, cos i felt that there's no need to, from that bloody attitude you got there. and i guess its working well for you to forget me. :) |
